Mary Cain’s rise in running was meteoric, but the story behind it is far more complicated. In this memoir, she pulls back the curtain on the pressures and abuses that shaped her teenage years. It’s a revealing look at how easily talent can be exploited.
Title/Author:
“This Is Not
About Running” by Mary Cain
Rating:
4 of 5 stars (Very
Good)
Review:
Mary Cain’s
story is sadly not uncommon. An elite runner discovered at age 12, she gained
even more notice in high school as she shattered records previously held by
professional athletes. At 16, she joined the elite Nike Oregon Project after
being recruited by Alberto Salazar. But her experience there — and even with
her high school teammates — was far from happy. She writes about those years in
this memoir.
While the
book’s title says it’s not about running, that’s both true and false. The most
powerful sections deal with the treatment Mary received: coaches insisting that
at 120 pounds she was too heavy, and the eating disorders and mental health
crises that followed. Things became so severe she considered suicide and began
cutting. The writing is fine, though at times it leans more toward venting than
deep self-reflection. It’s never easy to write about one’s own mental health,
so some grace is warranted, but it’s not the strongest memoir I’ve read on that
subject.
The parts that are
about running are compelling as well. Readers get a sense of what it’s like to
train and compete at an elite level. Because we only have Mary’s perspective,
many of these interactions come across as negative — and in most cases,
justifiably so. The clearest examples come from her high school years. As she
broke records and drew attention, one teammate’s mother began harassing Mary
and her parents, convinced Mary was stealing the spotlight from her daughter.
Mary suggests this mother was living vicariously through her child because of
her own running background. Whether that’s true or not, it’s at least an
explanation.
Then, of
course, there are the issues with the Nike Oregon Project. Mary previously
published an editorial in The New York Times detailing the mental abuse,
the eating problems, and the toll on her mental health — but she never
mentioned sexual abuse, even though she often spent time at Salazar’s house and
describes several moments where they were alone. Given the later allegations
against Salazar and his fall from grace, readers may wonder whether the memoir
tells the full story of their relationship or whether some things were
intentionally left unsaid.
Overall, this
is a strong exposé of what the Nike Oregon Project did to Mary and, as she
explains, the broader exploitation of young athletes. Hopefully her story
contributes to further reforms beyond those already underway.
I wish to thank
Mariner Books for providing a copy of the book via NetGalley. The opinions
expressed in this review are strictly my own.
Link: This
Is Not About Running: A Memoir: Cain, Mary: 9780063441880: Amazon.com: Books





